I like you but I’m doing myself a favor by not letting myself fall for anyone. I’m going to focus on myself. I need to reinvent myself, become a better person, enhance my personal qualities as well as discovering them and grow in every way possible. I feel like I’m progressing and excelling and I don’t want to stop now. I don’t know how long I’m going to keep this up and I don’t expect you to wait but it would help if we could stay friends. After all, we can never do things completely on our own. You’ve been nothing but good to me and I thank you so much for everything.
Being heartbroken as well as being a heartbreaker, I realize that there’s still so much more about myself that I have yet to understand. Just when I thought I had it all figured out, someone comes in and makes me lose my way. I’m so tired of this cycle and I’ve realized that its going to continue until I do something different for once. Summer is coming and I’m going to take advantage of that time to make myself grow as well as the bonds that I have with my friends.All I know now is that I’m happy.
When I grow old, I think I’m going to need someone to take care of me… financially. I need to start looking for a sugar daddy and save up.
I don’t stress enough… as in I literally don’t give enough fucks for school. It bothers me because I know how important it is yet I don’t have enough will power to get myself to do it. I have no sense of urgency whatsofuckingever. It’s like I’m stressing but I’m not at the same time and I’m the only source of that stress. It’s my mind playing some pretty fucked up game with my life. But just to keep it simple, I’m a lazy-ass-little-fuck.
What am I doing with my life? Fuck it, summer’s here.