jcmasado - Just a little confused

Just a little confused

So I was just laying in bed thinking about my day until this random thought came into mind and I just had to put it into words before I forget it. I thought I had everything figured out without a doubt or question that I’m gay, I accept it and don’t deny it at all. However, I talked to this beautiful girl that stopped by my work for the first time and we had a pretty good conversation. I felt like we had a pretty good chemistry, that is if I decided to give it a chance with her. Then it hit me when I realized what I was thinking, I mean was that really going through my mind that I could like a girl? I remember back in high school I came out to everyone as bi. But as time passed I realized I only think about guys and completely stopped thinking about girls and later on accepted the fact that I was just gay. I totally thought that being bi was just a phase and that everyone would completely cross over or go back once they figure themselves out, I guess I just didn’t believe in going both ways (a friend told me only girls can do that, not guys). Just a few months ago though I started thinking about making out with a girl and have genuine mutual feelings with one. What’s funny though is that I leave the sex part out most of the time. Vagina still grosses me out sometimes though haha, I feel like I just have to find the man in me to eat it out and own it haha. I don’t know haha, I guess I’ll figure this confusion out soon or later. Going back to sleep now, good night!

18.02.12
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