Recently, I’ve been hearing this specific phrase that I’m never going to get used to. Sometimes, I’ll be out with my boyfriend and we bump into a couple of his friends and he would introduce me saying, “This is JC, my boyfriend.” It’s such a simple thing to say yet it never fails to make me quiver inside. I think the reason is because I’ve always thought that I’d be single for at least a couple more years. I accepted the fact that maybe I’m not quite ready for a relationship so I genuinely gave up on dating. But it wasn’t long until this guy comes into my life, becomes my friend and changes everything. Even today I still can’t believe I actually get to hear that introduction from my significant other. It all still feels like a dream.
For a really long time now, I’ve been MIA on tumblr. I used to type up a post at least three to four times a day (all queued at night) and try to minimize reblogging because I wanted to keep my blog personal. But for a year now, I’ve been very negligent. There were times when I’d want to post something up but had no motivation to do it or when I actually do type something up, I end up deleting it after thinking how pointless it was. I’ve changed so much throughout the year and I at least want to put my thoughts into words so that I can look back on them every once in a while.
For now, this will be a little update about myself. I’m happily taken by a really talented guy. He draws, dances, and makes me feel very special. There’s nothing more I can ask for, I’m currently content with my life. I also realized I don’t want to be a nurse anymore, I want to become a pilot. If not, then I at least want to be an engineer in aviation technology. I’ve always been fascinated with the idea of flight since I was a kid and I wish I pursued this direction a long time ago. School is ending in about three weeks and I’m currently stressing out about finals because I’m really stupid in Biology, which is what made me realize nursing isn’t my thing. Yeah. When it hit me, I realized, “FUCK THIS SHIT. THIS AIN’T FOR ME.” Some things just don’t come naturally to us as other. Sometimes I think I’m just stupid. Period. God help me. Other than school. I’m a happy camper haha. And Christmas is coming! My favorite holiday! I’ve always hated this time of the year but now that I have a boyfriend, it changes everything. Friday will be our four months together! Lalalala :3