I totally forgot that I have a quiz for my Japanese class in the morning. I have a page of Kanji characters that I have study, I gotta study the stroke orders, their hiragana characters, and their meaning. When I realized this, I just laughed a little because I felt like such an idiot for forgetting, but I’ll accept the consequences for my stupidity. I’m cramming tonight and I am in the calmest state of mind. I love being rational and calmer than ever, better than panicking. This post is the only irrational mistake :)
Somehow I always feel like I need someone to talk to while studying late at night. I guess it just gives me the feeling that I’m not the only one awake. Better yet, I guess slight distractions help me to study.
I don’t stress enough… as in I literally don’t give enough fucks for school. It bothers me because I know how important it is yet I don’t have enough will power to get myself to do it. I have no sense of urgency whatsofuckingever. It’s like I’m stressing but I’m not at the same time and I’m the only source of that stress. It’s my mind playing some pretty fucked up game with my life. But just to keep it simple, I’m a lazy-ass-little-fuck.
What am I doing with my life? Fuck it, summer’s here.